"Rainbow Baby"

I just read the most amazing quote that I wanted to share...it seems to really be appropriate for me today for two reasons.  First, we met with a high risk doctor in the maternal fetal department at U of M today who gave us a lot of hope for this pregnancy.  Second, on our way home from said appointment today the sky turned dark blue/green and it started pouring and hailing (I even have some hail damage to my car).


"A "Rainbow Baby" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm after you have experienced the loss of a child, stillbirth or miscarriage. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope. It is a term about the baby one has after the baby that dies. No matter the storm, when you trust God, there is always a rainbow waiting."

Anyway, our doctor appointment went well today.  The doctor said that he believes that all of Bristols problems were interconnected....basically that her fate was predetermined from basically 5 or 6 weeks of pregnancy.  The doctor wants us to have the first trimester screening on August 15th, another ultrasound around 14 weeks, another one around 17/18 weeks, and then another one around 20 weeks. He said by that point we will have a good idea how healthy the baby is growing. Today is 9 weeks 1 day, so hopefully in 10 weeks 6 days we can breathe a small sigh of relief.  I love this baby so much, but im not gonna feel 100% comfortable until he/she is safely in my arms!!!!!